My bloody awesome JPJ Driving Test

I went to the circuit with confidence, hoping that I will go there with "L" license and return home with the "P" license.

I finished my 10 hours of practical and after the last two last hours performance, I believed I was ready for the test. I was told to be cool and do my best, don't over-panic.

So my number is 80. -__- You can imagine how long I have to wait. And while waiting, I met a few new friends. Found a 1st year junior from TOA after I overheard him telling others about his education background. heheheh.

Then, the time comes. It was the Slope Test.
The moment I got into the car, I realise the difference in this Kancil and my instructor's Kancil. I tried my best to control the car. I did land on the yellow line nicely. But I failed this test after failed to balance the engine. :(

I couldn't feel it at all. The car is so different! No power or something. I was very disappointed. Normally during practice, I managed to do it properly. Oh well, I failed. Many people failed too. The good and lucky ones passed and proceeded to the 3 point turn and parking.

I was given the chance to take the Road Test.
It didn't really make me feel better. I can't seem to focus after knowing I failed the Slope Test. So I walked to the counter for Road Test and stupidly made a scene by going to the side of the table instead of in front.

Me: Hi, ermm..saya.. JPJ Officer: Adik, kalau masuk rumah orang, masuk dari tepi ke? *without looking up*

People stared at me and my stupidity. Terima kasih Abang JPJ. I appreciate your bitchiness.

Me : oh. sorry.

So he took my documents and then finally looked up at me and talked..

JPJ Officer: Oh Cina ke? Ingat Melayu. heheh.
Me: *not bothered look* mmm. ye. Cina.
JPJ Officer: Cina campur apa ni? Indian?
Me: no.
JPJ Officer: oh habis tuh? Malay?
Me: tak. Chinese mixed Thai.
JPJ Officer: Ohhhhh Thaiiiiiiiii!

I don't know what is so amazing. Maybe I would understand it if I was at his place. But I wasn't in the mood to talk much. I failed and what's left to do is the Road Test. I have no mood or motivation to go on already. Wanted to call Sayang and hear those motivational words, but I know he is busy at work. I only call to inform him about the bad news.

While waiting, I feel so down. Feels like a loser. Even feel like quiting driving and never come back for another test!

Then, my number was called. I looked at the car and realised I've got a lady JPJ officer. First word that came to my mind was "FUCK". Most people tell me that these ladies are very strict and not friendly. I quickly tell myself that this lady is different from the rest.

Got into the car and did the normal checking routines. All okay. She told me to "Jalan". But my car was parked right behind this Indian girl's car. I panicked. What if I hit her car while cutting out. I turned to the lady officer, " Boleh saya tunggu dia bergerak dulu?". She is okay with it.

After a minute, the car in front moved. I followed. We came to the Stop signboard, and the car in front stopped behind the white line. I have to stop too. I stupidly assumed that I "stopped" already. Then, when the front car moves on, I stupidly go on without stopping. D:

The lady officer stopped me right outside the circuit. Amazing, I failed before going out to the road. How stupid was that? I felt numb she said the word "fail ye.."

I could have at least passed the road test if I was focusing on the road. I guess my emotions were shaken that time. First time taking this test and already failed in the beginning. How do you think I feel? :(

Went back to the circuit after switching place with the lady officer. To come back with different seating shows that you fail. People were surprised to see my face after just 5 minutes of driving.

I'm not giving up yet. I take this as a good lesson. Things happened for a reason. Maybe I wasn't good enough and I must do it again. I was told that the cars for test are mostly not as powerful as the instructor's car. One girl shared with me her first test failure. She failed exactly like me! :O I'm not alone. She advised to press on the accelerator pedal harder for the slope test., and also tell me that it is okay to fail now and learn from that stupid mistake. She passed her second test. I'm happy for her. I wish that I will pass for the second test. I should take in two weeks time, if available. Planning to add 2 extra hours of practice before the retake.

I went home by taxi with this mixed feeling. Glad to know I'm not alone. And I realised that I forgot to eat my breakfast and lunch. :/
and to make things worse, it is the lady's monthly thing today.

I'm now feeling better. I will not give up. I must get my "P" license.

So yeah, I returned home with an L license...In another way, I returned home as a big time "L"oser.