3 Years of College.

It has been 3 years of college. Time flies. I can't believe it is already 3 years. I have graduated. Omg. And I'm 21. So fast. Everything is happening so fast.

I never thought I could survive these 3 years in college. And I remembered back then, how hard was it for me to get my education paid. I'm not born with the silver spoon in my mouth. My parents couldn't afford it. Not even the first semester fee. I was so troubled back then, thinking hard how to get 55k for my course. That was when I get to hear mixed responses. Some told me not to go for this expensive course. I remembered one of the school Alumni members told me right in my face that this act is just like "jumping into the pool without the float". Some told me to go to other colleges that offers the same course.

I'm glad I stick to own decision. It wasn't easy. But thanks to PTPTN, Wesley Methodist church loan, and my aunt who managed to cover big sums of money. There are other people who helped me too. Thank you, Dr Wee & Ms Melanie for financial & moral support. If it wasn't for you people, I wouldn't have heard of TOA nor the course! I could have been just graphic designer, since that was my basic interest.

Then, there is one friend of mine, Man. Who would have thought he will be friends with me till now? He was one of the private candidates who took PMR examinations in MGSKL. I never thought he would help me out financially. He was so generous that he don't mind letting me borrow 3k from him. That time, my ex-bf wasn't really happy about that. Well, he was able to help but refused to do so. There was nothing that I could do and its not like I asked for my friend's help. He approached me and offered to help, okay? Saya bukan bitch. Case closed.

Oh well. The day I got into foundation classes, I felt so average. hahahah! Yes it was a tough beginning for me. I can't draw well. I can't do ANYTHING well. The only strengths of mine that I realised were probably just Photoshop & Illustrator skills. And oh, maybe Communcation Skills classes. I managed to built a better speaker out of myself. And not to mention, bring out more dramatic side of me through drama classes.
Roles played that I remembered :
1. Spoilt brat princess who was forced to marry another man and managed to kill the cruel mother in law.
2. Act of excitement when I got proposed, then got pregnant and the labour pain act. Yes, I kangkang while lying on the floor in front of everyone, pretending to give birth.
3. Mentally ill child who got possessed. 1960's setting y'all!
4. sick, almost dying wife.
5. a friend who secretly hide her heart disease from bff. Yeah, my character died. LOL.
6. a girlfriend who is also a thief, go rompak bank with bf and somehow in the end must go and save the bf from another badass people.
7. a popular chick in high school who dumped the arrogant bf and coupled with a psychotic stalker who will get killed in the end.

I learn and been through quite alot in this 3 years, in various ways.

1. I cursed more often and my middle fingers are more flexible, probably practiced showing them too much lately.
2. I quit zaman seluar buruk, that made my butt looks bigger.
3. I quit loving pink colour stuffs. Unless its dull or light pink.
4. I got heartbroken: ex-bf cheated on me, left me hanging on, and decided to throw me down after decided to go on with new girlfriend aka his best friend.
5. Make more friends and a few enemies too. Stan, you are frenemy okay!
6. I had my first trip to Sunway Lagoon, like a jakon.
7. I had experienced alot of motion sickness in buses & LRTs.
8. I managed to lose weight a little.
9. I learn to open up and fall in love again.Happy and glad to say that I'm still very much in love with him.
10. I realised that age doesn't matter in college. Its the way you behave that matters! Your level of maturity is more important. Funny to see people who are way older than me but cannot be matured enough than me.
11. Some people are born to be insensitive. Some are over sensitive, very near to kuat perasan level.
12. I'm more comfortable with all my male friends. Used to feel afraid and insecure. But I don't anymore. I take them equal like my female friends.
13. And oh yeah, some college staffs are really not friendly. I wanted to smile to them, but seeing them making that arrogant face, I don't feel like smiling anymore. Some can be weird, tend to look at you and don't feel awkward about it? As if like I did something wrong.
14. I learned that having an IT staff as bf is hot! adventurous. :P
15. I learn to fast with my bf and other Malay friends for the first time.
16. Graduation Campaign was not really helping me much but I'm glad that out of the major uncool stuffs, we did have fun somehow.
17. I realised how ordinary is my sculpture (Loth Demonous), because its not chosen to be displayed, either picture display or the sculpture display itself.
18. There are actually freaky people in the college. Welcome to the real world.
19. I wear heels and proper shoes more often. Learn to choose proper clothes. HAHA!
20. Staying back in the lab for 3d modeling was tiring but fun because of friends.
21. I used to think language is the barrier to communicate with my DG classmates, but not anymore. In fact, I can understand Mandarin better than before. Hahaha.
22. I deleted Facebook and rely more on Twitter & Blog.
23. I learn to love certain animes. Used to dislike anime because I can't stand fanatic people. it scares me. Now not so bad. I like Bleach, Nodame... and erm, Naruto. Damn. Bf is going to tease me if he sees this.
24. I learned that its not easy to get scholarship. I still feel hurt whenever I think of Star Education Fund. Anyway, I should be thankful that at least I made it to the interview. Not everyone gets that chance.

ahhh. Too many to list down. It is 3 years. I have too much to say. Overall, the course cost not just 55k, if u were to count in the other expenses. I might die paying the loans through my nose, but I do think it is worthy. Experiences, skills, the good and bad memories? One word - Priceless.

P/s: Convocation Ceremony is on Early November, if not mistaken.